A.L.O.N.E

This few days I'm seem like not happy at all.....
Why I feel so sad?
I keep on wondering and looking for the answer....
I cant think of nothing else.....
Except to loose my mind....
Always pretend to be happy at school....
But actually deep in my heart are empty and hurt.....
Everyday doing the same thing again and again.....
I'm sick of this life.......
I'm sick of these scars......
I'm sick of feeling like.....
I'm tired and getting sick of it.....
I'm behind iron bars.....
My empty little soul.......
Can anyone tell me what I should do???
I'm really too tired.....
I'm just realised that I'm always ALONE.....
I feel ALONE in the world.....
Driving myself crazy.....
I can't stand myself if only everyone else could see......
the scars have all faded.....
my smile covers it all.......
they all think I'm normal.......
they don't see the wall......
the wall hides my true self......
all the tears, all the lies........
they see this happy girl......
when I'm really dying inside......
i want someone to ask.......
i want someone to care......
would anyone ever miss me.....
if i wasn't here.....
my heart has been torn......
i hide away so no one can see.......
the cracks will never mend......
I'm my own worse enemy......
One minutes I can have a lots of friends.....
And another minutes I can loss all my friends.....
Seeks out for someone to be my listener.....
Want to release more blood......
More an more i let fall out......
While still i refuse to shout......
The pain is unbearable.....
Why?Why?Why?
My tears start falling.....
Saying "lord please help me out"......
Why lord why do you let me fail......
Oh lord what have i become.......
I'm thinking that maybe in my life.....
I always ALONE......